i feel trapped and alone and scared and it’s all my fault
i won’t make it
i’m terrified
Remember that movie in which Jack Black was a teacher and building a rock band and when a little black chubby girl asked to be a singer he only said “sure! let me hear you” and the moment she started using her beautiful voice his lit up like all of his dreams came true, PLUS the same little girl was scared that people would make fun of her because she was fat and he started listing awesome singers with some weight on and included himself and told her that people wouldn’t laugh because she is awesome at what she does and that is all that matters PLUS that it’s ok to enjoy food?
Also, when a little boy asked to be the band’s stylist he just said “sure, go ahead fancy pants” like, there wasn’t a single second of questioning it, he went into “ok, that will be your position then” right away
That fucking movie is an hour and a half of Jack Black teaching kids to love themselves disregarding all of the stereotypes
And don’t forget the Asian guy said he shouldn’t be in the band because he thought he wasn’t “cool enough”. Jack Black didn’t miss a beat by making up a secret handshake between he and the kid.and telling him he’s amazing at what he does playing the piano. After that the Asian kid even stood up for himself against a bully.
And he put the violent kid with anger issues on drums and let him constructively work out his aggression.
School of Rock is fab basically
impeachment: Tokyo Drift
Things I’ve seen in Covid19 as an ICU nurse:
- a husband and wife admitted to icu, positive for covid after sending their two teenagers back to school when it opened. She coded and died yesterday. We wheeled her body into his room so he could say goodbye to his high school sweetheart from his hospital bed. We dont expect him to survive.
- 94 year old man, married to his wife for 64 years, both tested positive after a single visit to their dentist. It was the only “outing” they had since March. Because there are so few beds available, they were sent to separate hospitals. She stroked and died shortly after. He watched her funeral on FaceTime and never got to say goodbye.
- a 25 year old who flew home from another state because his mom was afraid and asked him too. He tested positive 3 days after his flight. He died 20 days later in our ICU.
- a father/son duo who run a manufacturing company, tested positive along with the majority of their employees. They both came to our ICU. Dad died. Son was able to leave the hospital 30 days later - he learned of his father’s death after leaving, for fear of impacting his recovery.
- A schoolteacher, working for special needs children, tested positive 1 week after her school mandated they reopen. She died 10 days later. Her last words before we intubated her were, “Im going to be your next survivor!” We told her she was right, but we all knew it wouldn’t happen.
- a 45 year old woman with a 6 and 8 year old at home. After 65 days, she never woke up due to hypoxic brain injury. She never made it off a ventilator.
- tiered nursing models, where ICU patients are being cared for primarily by nurses without ICU experience while one ICU rn gets placed as a “supervising” nurse over 5 ICU patients, and monitors the regular nurses care over them. Your loved ones not getting the appropriate level of care deserved because we have no staff left to care for them.
- patients who should be in ICU unable to come to the ICU because there are no beds available. Left on the regular floor in hospital with no additional supervision or coverage because there’s not enough staff to do so.
- patients that have been sent from out of state because their home areas have no room to take them. When these patients are close to end of life, their families are hard pressed to arrive in time to say goodbye.
- a unit opened as a tiered-staffing ICU where there is no negative pressure in patient rooms and no way to install them per maintenance. Nurses are going to be required to wear PAPR during their entire shifts without taking them off while working in that unit. So 12 hours without drinking water or eating unless you can leave the unit. Which it being tiered staffing - its not safe for the ICU rn to leave because there will only be 2 ICU nurses on the unit.
We are a long ways from having herd immunity with the coming vaccines. Please wear your masks. Dont go where you dont absolutely have to go. Wash your hands. This is not the time to go on new dates, have family gatherings or big game nights or get together. Please. You have called the nursing profession “the most trustworthy” for decades - and now when we beg you to listen, to wear a simple mask and social distance, you call us liars and the trauma we see these patients go through every day a conspiracy. Please. We are breaking.
Remember!
2020 may be over, but the pandemic isn’t
100 good questions to ask your friends at 4:02 am when you can’t sleep (can also function as an asks list)
- Are you bothered by your cosmic insignificance?
- Do you mourn for a place or person you’ve never known?
- Do you really think there is somebody for everybody?
- Do you place any value in gender roles?
- Do you have to be related to be family?
- Are your platonic relationships just as valuable as romantic or family ones?
- Are you in love? Do you want to be?
- Do you think you can put love into categories (family, platonic, romantic, etc.) or is it just one general sensation?
- Would you be happy with a life without romance?
- Are you always going to be a little in love with somebody?
- Would you change your appearance if you could?
- Do you have the feeling you’ve lost something you might have had in another life - whether it be a person, a place, a world, a language, etc.?
- Do you believe in reincarnation?
- Would you want to be reincarnated?
- Do you think you’re special, or just another person amongst billions? Can you be both?
- Do theoretical ethical debates have any value? Is it important people discuss ethical dilemmas, e.g. the trolley problem?
- Did you have imaginary friends? Do you still have them?
- Are you religious? Do you think your religion is ‘correct’?
- If you aren’t religious, do you wish you were? Why?
- Do you want a grand adventure?
- Do you have somebody, whether it be a friend or stranger, who you think you could have loved if the circumstances were different?
- How long does it take you to fall in love with somebody?Is the sensation of ‘falling in love’ or ‘being in love’ better?
- Is love about convenience or something more? Can it be about both?
- Do you think you really understand your gender and sexuality?
- How fluid is your concept of gender and sexuality?
- What’s the most life-changing choice you’ve made so far?
- Are you afraid of growing old?
- Would you want to live forever? How about for a billion years, a million, a millennium, a century?
- Do you believe in some form of god/s?
- Are your choices fated or of your own free will?
- Do you have a hunch about how you’re going to die?
- Do you believe in star signs?
- How old do you have to be to be considered an adult?
- Was your childhood happy?
- What are you missing from your life?
- Have you ever met someone who had a very similar personality to your own? Did you get along?
- Do opposites attract?
- Is your life what you expected it would be five years ago?
- Do you know what you want out of life?
- What makes a person ‘good’? Are you a ‘good person’?
- What fundamentally matters do you?
- Is freewill an illusion?
- Do you create art? How do you define art?
- How often do you lie? Is all lying inherently bad? Are you generally truthful?
- Do you want to be remembered after your death? What for?
- Is true world peace ever possible?
- Do you have to suffer to truly understand the human condition? What is the human condition? How can you really experience it?
- Are you free? Will you ever be? Can anyone be truly free?
- Do you hold yourself to higher standards than you hold others?
- What do you expect from a friend or partner?
- What question could you ask to find out the most about a person?
- Do you justify all your beliefs or have you just inherited/absorbed some?
- Which beliefs do you have that is most likely to be wrong?
- Can human really understand the complete nature of the universe, space and time?
- Is a conscious what makes someone a person?
- What do you think about artificial intelligence?
- Do you thinks humans are obsessed with escapism (books, video games, movies, etc.)? Are you looking for an escape? Do you think that’s a bad thing?
- Are we eventually going to ‘run out’ of new combinations for music, art, language, etc.? Is there a limit to human creativity?
- What do you think the next era of music will be like?
- What do you think the next era of fashion will be like?
- Do we live in tumultuous times, or do they just seem so strange because we’re living in them?
- Would you want to meet a clone of yourself? Would you like them?
- How confident are you, really?
- How consistent is your perception of time?
- What age should people be allowed to vote? Should children and teenagers be allowed to vote?
- How do you feel about the idea ‘an eye for an eye’?
- What’s the worse thing a person can be?
- How do you feel about monogamy?
- Can you be in love with someone and still fall in love with someone else?
- What’s the tragedy of your life?
- Would your life make a good play?
- Should people be prosecuted for crimes that weren’t considered crimes at the time?
- Would you fight for your country? Do you feel a sense of loyalty to your nation?
- Do you believe in gender equality in every aspect?
- Do we have a moral obligation to care for others? To what extent?
- Do you crave approval and/or praise?
- Is there comedy in all tragedy and tragedy in all comedy?
- Are you ever going to be satisfied?
- When you are sad, do you listen to music that conveys your emotions or music that makes you happy?
- Is your music organised by mood or sensation or do you just listen to everything at any time?
- Would you marry a friend if they needed you to (e.g. for citizenship)?
- Are you a deep person?
- Given the chance to live your life on Mars, with no hope of returning to Earth but with the promise of scientific discovery and glory, would you take it?
- Are you who people think you are?
- Do you think you would be happier if you had been born a different gender, sexuality, race, ethnicity, nationality or religion?
- What’s your toxic trait? Are you trying to improve yourself and fix it?
- Do you anger easily?
- Are you a jealous person?
- If you lost all your memories, would you have the same personality?
- Given the chance to reset your life (with none of the knowledge you currently have), would you take it?
- Is hate as strong as love? Who do you hate?
- Do you speak multiple languages? Which do you dream in? What language would you want to learn?
- Do you draw meaning from your dreams, or do you disregard them?
- How would you describe yourself when you love? Do you love forcefully, unconditionally, gently, quietly, desperately?
- Is unrequited love real love?
- Is your perception of yourself similar or the same to how others perceive you?
- Are you overly analytical?
- Do you ever feel that you are really a terrible person, and only act good out of societal or some other obligation?
- Do you believe in magic? Are you superstitious?
- What belief do you have that isn’t logically grounded, but you still firmly believe in?
it’s one in the morning and it smells like bread in my room
i have the munchies
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH!
I'm going to apologize right now, if you see this posted in several cross stitch groups because I am just so damn excited!
As a cross-stitcher, and pattern designer... You could understand how excited this makes me! I want to scream so loud. I've wanted this for so long. But DMC is always sold out. And I'm on the email list but I haven't gotten an email when it's back in stock.
And being that we have extra budget this month, "I'm getting it." I said to myself... And I didn't care that it cost $10-$15 more to get an on Amazon. I have wanted this for so long.
I am just so excited that I want a revel in my excitement and my child can wait another 10 minutes for lunch! Because Mommy is just too excited.
This is the DMC color floss chart with the actual threads! The actual, fucking, threads! I can't tell you how difficult it is often, to try and color match threads for a cross stitch pattern... Using nothing but a printed color flush chart. Because you've got the glare from the lights, you've got the gloss of the cardstock that it's printed on...And I sit there for 10 minutes trying to decide if the color is matched or if I'm just imagining things!
This is pure heaven and this totally makes my day a thousand times better. I got it from here: https://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B077K8Q5S5/ref=ppx_yo_dt_b_asin_title_o00_s01?ie=UTF8&psc=1
Also, please enjoy my fancy new embroidery scissors! They cut through thread like butter. They are amazing and I love them!
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asians: pls care about racism against us
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like literally the fact that this has 9 notes (and most other posts abt asian american rep i’ve seen, rbed, or written have similar amounts), is proving my point. every time i reblog or post anything about racism agains asians, i can literally see everyone scrolling past it. not even given a performative like. are y’all consciously ignoring it or are you truly just that desensitized to racism against asians?
May I add:
- Dont fetishize asians.
- Dont make coronavirus jokes about asians. (Yes, it’s still happening, and it’s still a problem.)
- Dont like?? Stereotype asians? Not every asian you’re going to meet is good at math or lives on a diet of rice, that’s just rude as hell and wrong
Exactly. Speak up for everyone.
Keep the same energy for racism against all asians as we do with other races. That includes more than just east asians. Asia is more than China, Japan and Korea.
And I see y'all, you’re really selective about the shit y'all reblog from me. This should have more than one reblog.